Wonders.

I think of you when:

• I hear the song "Don't let me get me" by Pink because I remember one day in the car when you were sitting in the passenger seat and I was sitting in the back seat, you said "this song reminds me of myself" and it made my heart feel heavy.
• I play the song "Deep Inside of You" by Third Eye Blind because I think it's a coincidence how you said it was your favorite song since it reminds you of the person you fell deep in love with and now it reminds me of you...the person I fell deep in love with..."I wanna call you but I don't wanna call you and I don't wanna crush you but I feel like crushing you"
• Every time I sign into one of my accounts because your name is in the majority of my passwords
• Someone mentions Johny Rockets because that was the last time I saw you
  
• I'm walking by myself in the streets on a normal day

Sometimes I wonder what it means when every time you call, I think twice about picking up but I pick up anyways. What does it mean when my thumbs battle back and forth switching between the red and green buttons on my phone after I dial your number. Sometimes I wonder why I even wonder at all.