Am I on one?

The feeling of "missing" someone, comes as unexpected, unintended, unwilling as the feeling of wanting to beat the shit outta someone. And then it makes you question that this high you've been on for a couple of weeks without them is just you keeping busy, a distraction. Are these feelings of feeling more like your old self, fleeting. How dare you make me question my happiness. How dare I let you make me question my happiness, even if it's just for this moment.