Molding.

Sometimes I don't understand why relationships don't mold itself together? What happen to 'love' being just enough.

I never knew that in the process of trying really hard to stay solid...is really hard. A lot of the solid is the result of trying hard not to question things, look too deep into things, not caring about things, brushing things off my shoulders. Keeping away from intense feelings, intense thoughts, intense words, intense conversations, intense situations. When you stop digging for something, you sometimes stop feeling all together. It may not do alotta relationships good cuz it really limits what type of conversations you have with people. but damn, it's working. So why don't we just stick with that until we're ready to explore or gradually care about things again?

And it may not sound like those are the best things to do, but I try to not look at it as a negative thing, but rather normal. It's a coping mechanism. Getting back into the groove. People may say it's a unhealthy way of doing it, but I've been feeling quite alright. So fuck'em.